Hey everyone!!
Well, i'll be totally honest with you all, this week has been tough. These past few weeks have been the toughest and hardest weeks emotionally so far for me. I guess i'm starting to realize that not every week you find a perfect, golden investigator who has no obstacles in sight and baptism is right in view. I'm also starting to realize that not everybody is ready for the gospel, as hard as you try to make it seem like they are. Martin is still lost, Tim still doesn't have a testimony, and we just haven't been able to really find anybody new. Well, i have somebody i can tell you guys about in a bit, but it's been difficult. But i know that these weeks have for sure been for my benefit and my testimony and trust in the Lord will be much stronger than they were at the start of this transfer.
So Martin, I'm pretty sure, is still here in Madison. We went to his apartment the other day, his car was there, his phone rang, and his apartment lights were on we are pretty sure. But, he didn't answer his phone and didn't answer his buzzer. He also didn't answer our ward mission leaders call. That was on Thursday afternoon and kinda destroyed my day. I have no idea what got to him but something obviously did. Something i don't know if i shared with you guys about my previous temple trip was that i prayed to know what we needed to do for Martin and my answer was love and patience. Love made sense obviously but patience at the time didn't make sense. But thursday talking to Roberts about that, he was pretty confident and sure that he will still get baptized if i got that answer in the temple. Definetely a confidence booster for me. And i know that i myself am not a patient person, so i have faith that this will all work out in the end and not only benefit me, but Martin is probably working something out that may have hindered his path to baptism. I really just wish that he would answer the phone. It really stinks not having even talked to him for 2 weeks.
Tim is still working on his baptism as previously stated. He really loves meeting with us and learning, but just hasn't found out if it's all true yet. He's doing everything that he needs to to get an answer including coming to FHE and Institute as well as reading and praying. President told us that we should teach him about prayer though and make sure he is doing everything correctly, all the little tiny details. So we went over that and we hope he will recieve an answer here shortly. He opted out of coming to the temple unfortunately. The sisters have an investigator who came to the temple and she absolutely loved it and has a date for the end of March. I was pretty sad he didn't come because I have a strong testimony of the power of temples, which i shared with him, and i know he probably would've had prayers answered there. He also wasn't able to come to church on Sunday, which freaked us out because we thought we may have offended him and he would disappear too, but turns out he went down to Iowa to see his mom and visit her. That's a good thing though that he did that because he has had a bad relationship with his mom growing up and i imagine he was forgiving her or making restitution or something because he's awesome like that. Luckily, he returned our phone call and told us that or right now i would be ultra bummed because both our golden's dropped off the earth.
But let me tell you about one of our new investigators. Her name is Dawnette and she was found by our ward mission leader on the bus. He set up a time for us to go teach her and we went and did that Tuesday. Well, i actually didn't go because we were on exchanges that day, lame. But the appointment went sweet and we have an appointment with her tonight. I still haven't even met her yet! But the lesson rocked last time. I guess she's been wanting to be Mormon for quite a while now, her daughter is a member in south western Wisconsin and her grandson is on a mission and she has listened to the Book of Mormon on tape. That's pretty sweet huh? She wants to be baptized but the only catch, she wants to be baptized in a river. I wonder if she's forgotten that it's FEBRUARY in WISCONSIN? She wants to be baptized in a river because that's where Jesus was baptized, so that's sweet, but this water ain't gonna be warm here anytime soon. This ICE won't be melted here anytime soon. So we're going to see how she feels about being baptized in a font when we talk to her tonight. I still haven't met her yet, so i can't really tell you too much about her, but i smell another golden investigator with her.
On Friday we got to go to the temple again, definetely a perk about serving in the singles ward, President says that we should be involved with the singles ward as much as possible and go on the temple trips and stuff. No complaints about that here! The temple was great though. I prayed that i would be comforted and calm and destressed in the temple. It worked and it was awesome. The temple is so sweet. "I Love to See the Temple!" It makes me happy and feel great. I just wish there was more!! We're workin on it.
But definetely somethings i've noticed here in the past couple weeks is that missionary work is tough, time is FLYING by (kinda stinks), there's not a lot of time to do other things (like replying to letters, i have like 5 that i need to reply to!! Sorry!), that i need to be obedient, and that i need to totally and truly apply myself and lose myself in this great and glorious (and hard) work to be totally and truly blessed by the Lord. The mission has truly been life changing and i have learned and grown immensely, and still have alot of growing to do here in my time as a missionary. I'm really trying to savor it all and work hard and reap the blessings that come from my work here. They don't lie when missionaries say time flys! Elder Roberts says that it gets worse too, so i'm not looking forward to it. 1 week seems like 2 days. But i am looking to get the fire back and my happiness and optimism back here soon, it's no fun when you're down. And that's what i'm all about is having fun while you work. Madison is waiting for the gospel and we're going to find them all and give it to them!!!
I love you guys a ton and a half and am so grateful to have such a sweet and loving family and a ward family and group of friends back home to die for. Keep on keeping the faith and choosing the right!! We all go through hard times to shape us and make us into so much more better people. A talk yesterday at singles ward really stuck out to me. This girl was talking about hard and difficult times and she said that these expereiences either make us into something so much more or they leave us really bitter and holding a grudge. I think that if we let these experiences make us bitter and grudge-ful (is that a word) we become weak and useless and we lose alot of respect from others and from then on, lots of things will be hard and difficult for us. So don't do that!! Let these tests and trials help you become better!!
Alrighty, well, i'm gonna roll out now. Have a good week!! You're in my prayers.
Love
Elder Kissell